It's probably no great revelation to my regular readers, but it can be an amazing thing to have a portion of scripture penetrate your heart.
I have to say that the last couple of months have been very eventful and very trying. I've been involved with some very stressful things at work, church can be a very stressful and trying environment, and home can be the same. In the middle of that time, I served on a jury for about a month, and my life feels like it was put on hold and it still feels like I am playing catch-up.
So, I'm sitting in my wonderfully gray cubicle today, and just feeling lousy. Nothing really wrong, just crabby. Then I noticed that I'm playing out conversations and scenarios in my head all in a negative fashion: delivering a piece of bad news to a client and having it escalate, having a ministry meeting at church and having a huge conflict arise out of that, checking my
church e-mail and not seeing anything, and wondering if I'm making a difference or being edged out...
And then it hits me. "WHAT AM I DOING!?" For whatever reason, the last couple of days I'd totally allowed this negative spirit, this crabbiness, this just outright LIE to capture my soul and pervade all aspects of my life.
I have on my
iPod an application
called YouVersion, which is an online Bible put out by
LifeChurch.
tv. One of the things that I really like about it is that there's a daily reading schedule.
So I just stopped what I was doing, and did my daily reading: Luke 8 and the parable of the sower. Remember that one? The sower threw his seeds and they landed on the rocky ground, the thorny ground, and the fertile soil? Yeah, not quite fertile soil.
I love the fact that God's spirit will communicate with you through His Word. I love the fact that a simple parable can show us a VERY deep spiritual concept, and it can make sense, and it can be acted on immediately!
So, I'm casting off that negativity from the last couple of days. Even if the source of the negativity was another person, from myself, whatever--that's not me, and that's not how God wants you or I to live. Even in the midst of waiting, even in the midst of a trial, that's not who we are.
We ended Sunday's service with a fantastic song by John Waller, called "While I'm Waiting." Simple song, a simple message, and something that can provide that reminder, that nudge, not to dwell in negative circumstances.
I don't normally tell people to buy any music, but I'd encourage you to pick this one up. Use this song as part of your devotional life. Use it as tool to help remind you that God's always around you, always part of your life, and even in those moments of waiting, being in his presence, reaching out to make a difference in someone
else's life might be that turning point for your own.
Love you all!!!
Jim